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Who am I? I like to describe myself as an average human trying to make her way through this deadly game of life.  Yes, I like to see life as a game. No, I am not delusional, just a little imaginative. I don't think being imaginative is the wrong thing.  This “game” of life can be sad, depressing, and tough sometimes. So, is it wrong to sometimes use our imagination to escape this game? I know many would disagree. Many would say that being too imaginative is wrong. We should be real to ourselves. We should learn to adapt to our reality, some twisted imagination won’t help.  I am not one of those people.  Because,  What’s a person without dreams?  On numerous  occasions, I have heard people calling me a “feminist” like it’s a bad thing. People have sent me memes on feminism, people have argued with me over feminism, and over supporting LGBTQ. I am sure that many have called me dumb and stupid behind my back for my words.  Do I ever feel bad? NO. Inf...

  A woman becomes a housewife. “It is her choice,” they said. A man becomes a house husband. “What kind of guy is he? He should earn for his family” they said.  Is this feminism?  A man wearing shorts. “It’s fine,” they said. A woman wearing shorts. “She is characterless,” they said. Is this feminism?  A woman wearing nail paint. “Nice colour,” they said. A man wearing the same shade of nail paint. “He must be gay.” “That’s not masculine,” they said. So, is this feminism?   Over a few years, the definition of feminism has changed for me. Earlier I used to think that feminism is only important for women but it's not.  Feminism is important for men as well. Why?   We live in a patriarchal society.  Patriarchy is not harmful to women alone but to men as well.  Patriarchy puts endless pressure on men to fit a narrow prescription of masculinity, to compete with one another, and to prove their manhood by rejecting their emotions.    How d...

  All my tears have dried, All these years I lied. They say I have changed, How do I explain them, that evolution is a game, I won something, I lost something. Cursing my present, I am trying to ignite my future, attached to my past, I still nurture. Life is unpredictable.  Anything can happen at any moment. You might win a lottery, you might fail a test, you might get the highest score in a test.  You might bump into your nemesis and get in a fight with them.  This uncertainty is truly overwhelming at least for me... It makes my heart flutter, makes me anxious to even think about it.  Do you feel the same? Life is short.  It feels like it was just yesterday that I started school now here I am; It’s my last year in school. It feels terrifying to me to see things go by so fast.  It is tense and challenging for me.  Do you feel the same? Life is strange.  We grow up thinking that fairies and monsters exist. Then we realize yes they exist. They ...

Have you ever looked up in the sky and thought about who lives there in the clouds? Or maybe Why does the moon follow me? Or thought if you can touch the moon by using a ladder?  I don’t know about you but I remember laying on the terrace of my house and thinking about all these things. Ain’t it funny how one day we were laying under the open sky, We were imagining a world outside of the one we are in. The next day we were preparing to find another world? The time flies,  Like a kite, Passion intervenes, Love faints, We are left with ourselves. As a child, I used to lie sleepless on my terrace staring at the sky and pondering if there's life beyond those clouds. I always thought that humans like us lived on those clouds looking down at us. Maybe there would be a family sitting on the clouds; one of their kids would be looking down at me and telling his mother “ Mom look! That girl keeps staring at us .” Her mother would laugh it off.  When I grew a bit older, I understoo...

  "Tum char ladkiya akeli boy's kii line mee kyu bethi hoo? jab sarri girls uss line mee bethi hai?" (Why are you four girls sitting in the boy's line while all the other girls are sitting in that line."). My social science teacher said these lines. In that class, we were cramming chapter-4: Gender, religion, and caste. What is the point of educating about gender equality if you do not accept it? Why to even teach something you don't believe in? The following day, those girls moved from "boy's" line to "that" line; As I entered the classroom. I saw them not sitting in their typical place. I asked the reason. When they told me about this "boy's" line episode, I felt strange. How did she even utter those words? Why did she think that? Did she really mean that? Just like an average girl, I took my bag and sat in the center seat of the "boy's" line. My friends accompanied me. When that teacher noticed us sittin...

                  Hello, My name is Vidushi Anand. An average girl. (first I changed 11th grader to 12th grader, now it's time to remove 12th as well. lmao. (29/11/23) so... not a 12th grader now. Time to change it an engineering student. Great life.  (20/2/24) Quick update, I am in 2nd sem of my engineering degree. yaaay? XD. Today I decided to read all these blogs again. why? no reason. Just felt a little lost ig. I noticed how I write kinda different views in different blogs. somewhere I said Life is a marathon, somewhere I said It's not a marathon but an obstacle race. Ig as I transition from 11th to 12th to sem1 to sem2, my views change day by day. What a life!  (4/5/2024) Hie hie again, Sem2 is almost over, exams are next to next week ig, I finally wrote blogs about my struggles with failure? lol, idk, I felt good writing about how I flunked. Life is gooooood:)))  (26/6/2024)The last intro paragraph got a bit too lon...